Having written for my writing professors for so long, it feels sinful to write genre fiction. Not just genre fiction, young adult genre fiction. Its even worse. I read the words I type and know there is no character development, there is no depth, and the writing sounds so much like what I typed in middle school. Did I learn nothing and just take steps backward? Reverting to what I loved to do when I was little?
This is all going through my head when I write, and it makes it difficult to write without confidence. Confidence in what you are writing makes a big difference. Also, feeling like you are writing something worthwhile makes a big difference too. And approximately 9 pages into it, I feel neither. I'm pushing myself along because I promised I would, but its been tough going so far. Tomorrow is my second fully open day to write, so we'll see how that goes.
For now, I am putting myself here for the purpose of keeping to my guns. A sort of Julia & Julia moment, but without the second Julia. I'm just writing for the purpose of writing. Here's to perseverance.
Soli Deo Gloria.